Step Three Hundred and Twelve
Be grateful, then, that you have been spared from attempting the impossible for yourself, for what is real is given to you. What you must do is become a student and a vehicle for Knowledge. This will activate all meaningful individual development and all meaningful individual education. It will require more of you than you have required of yourself, and all that it requires will be fulfilled and will yield its true promise for you.
Upon the hour remind yourself of this and take heart that a greater involvement is promised which will provide you escape from your individual misery. In your deeper practice periods today, actively engage your mind to review all of your small personal problems. Review all of the things you think hold you back and all of the things you think you must resolve for yourself. As you look at each one objectively, without denial, remember and remind yourself that a greater calling is given you which will correct these things or make their correction unnecessary. Remind yourself that Knowledge will provide correction at all levels as your life becomes uniform and directed, as your Knowledge begins to emerge and as your true sense of self begins to be recognized and received.
Practice 312: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
I keep in mind yesterday’s step that cautions against allowing ambition to take me into the world prematurely. I keep in mind that I am still undergoing preparation, I do not know what awaits me, I cannot fathom what my greater calling may be, all I can do is prepare, prepare to be a vehicle for Knowledge in the world.
“Review all of the things you think hold you back and all of the things you think you must resolve for yourself.”
The day improved as it went along. I took care of greater things and my sense of denseness and stupidity abated.