Step 89. My Emotions Cannot Dissuade My Knowledge.
Practice upon the hour and at the beginning of your two longer meditation periods, repeat today’s idea and then enter into stillness. Today learn to value that which is certain and to understand that which is uncertain, to recognize that which is cause and that which obstructs cause but which may in time serve cause itself.
Practice 89: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
There is one particular issue in my life that I always overreact to, allowing my emotions to kick in before I have time to take sober stock of what is going on. This issue came up again yesterday as I was practicing this Step, and I was able to rein in my emotions and stop them from running riot, nip them in the bud, so to speak, allowing my thinking to take a more rational course and see what was certain, as opposed to reacting to what was uncertain. This is another very profound Step that I realize I have not fully understood, but am confident I will understand with time if I keep practicing.
What I see at the moment is that I should not berate myself for my emotions—strong destructive emotions, that is—but be aware of them and allow this awareness to gently steer me in a new constructive direction.
Here you learn to become a good teacher for yourself, a trusted friend instead of a constant critic—a demanding, irritable, harsh, judgmental critic.
The critic within you .... is eventually replaced by an abiding counselor, as you learn to remind yourself of the important things—patience, perseverance, openness, acceptance and the return to Knowledge.
All the things that a wise counselor or teacher would tell you as you proceed .... you learn to tell yourself.