Review the last three weeks of practice. Reread the instructions and recall each practice period. Recall what you gave and what you did not give. Honor your participation and attempt to strengthen it today. Deepen your resolve to have Knowledge and deepen your experience of being a true follower so that in the future you may learn to be a true leader. Deepen your experience of being a true recipient so that you may be a true contributor.
Let this day of review, then, be a day of honor for you and a day that strengthens your commitment. Honestly evaluate your participation. Assess your apparent successes and failures. Your successes will encourage you, and your failures will teach you what you need to do to deepen your experience. This is a day of honor for you who are honored.
Practice 70: Several long practice periods.
Wait five minutes, and the wind will change again. I wrote the above a couple of days ago, and today my optimism and joy have returned and things are unfolding again in the right direction, I feel as though I am “in the flow” once more. Honoring myself is still difficult though, I would rather see it as honoring that part of me that is connected to God, to the Source, that part of me that is my deeper mind where Knowledge resides, that part which makes me aware I am on a sacred journey, not for myself, but together with and in communion with all the other souls consciously making this journey to raise the consciousness of the planet and save our beautiful world.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to be able to really get in touch with that part of me that is God-given and honor that gift - that is what I really want to honor in this Step.
My attention continues to be directed to pertinent quotes from the New Message books and teachings that speak to my experience today.
"Your purpose now is to prepare.
"If you must learn Greater Community Knowledge and Wisdom, then you must prepare in The Greater Community Way of Knowledge. You cannot make this up for yourself. And if you receive the curriculum, do not tamper with it; do not editorialize it; do not select what you like and disregard the rest, or you will not move beyond where you are. It takes a different understanding and a different movement in life to carry you into a greater awareness. With greater awareness comes a greater ability."
"Learning a Greater Community Way of Knowledge is a great undertaking and preparation. You cannot study it for a few weeks or a few months or a few years and master it. That is why we say there are no masters in the world. There are only proficient students. Therefore, seek to become a proficient student, which will indeed make you seem masterful to others.
"However, as soon as you think that you have arrived and that your education is complete, your studenthood will come to an end, and your mind will begin to close in upon itself. You will stop where you are and begin to slide backwards."
On Saturday, the day I began this review, I was out in the Russian countryside picking wild mushrooms, an activity I enjoy every year at this time. I enjoyed it even more this year, since I felt Knowledge with me. I felt as though honoring my practice and honoring the source of my instruction harmonized well with the satisfaction and delight I experience in the forest world where mushrooms grow.