Practice 11: Read the lesson three times today.
“You are an individual unaware of your Source and your total inclusion in life.”
I was rereading Greater Community Spirituality Chapter One - What is God? this morning and the following passage struck me as being pertinent to this Step:
“You must enter into the experience and the Mystery of life, which is the doorway to God, which is at the very heart of your life and contains the very purpose for your coming here that is unique to you but which you share with all life.”
June 27, 2018 Round Three: First reading - 4.05 am. I used to put great store by my individuality, well, people in general do, but now I feel as though I don’t any longer. Even though I am in a body, which is made up of the same “stuff” as everything around (molecules, atoms, plasma, bacteria, flesh and blood), I am not apart from life, I am a part of the whole, I am totally included in life. I am in the flow. My individuality is a burden, it is the source of my pain and discomfort in the world, it creates difficulties, but really this should not be so, for I am a part of life, and as such all should be joy and light.
Second reading - 15.05 It is hard being an individual who is unaware of their inclusion in life. All misery and difficulty comes from struggling to deal with our individuality and feeling we are separate and in our own little worlds. I am a thread in the fabric of life, we are one, interweaving with each other. We cannot help but affect each other and we need to find common ground. It’s all about relationship and being in the flow.
Third reading - 20.23. The mind is not separate, distinct, it is mysterious, but as much a part of life as our physical fabric. I need to digest this. Is the mind as individual as the body for most people. Even though each person’s body is different, there are more commonalities than differences. Is it the same for the mind? I feel the mind is more influenced by upbringing, culture, society, the circumstances of the world than by the unique attributes of each individual, so in that sense all minds have something in common. But the mind is also unique to each person and more unfathomable than the body, so this is why it’s mysterious. There is much more to the mind than meets the eye.
Do I understand what is meant by “Your individuality will be a great happiness to you when it can express life itself”? I guess so. It means that when I understand that my individuality is not a burden or source of misery and difficulty for me, but merely a temporary vehicle to use as a way of expression while I am in the world, I will be much happier. And I am.