Step Two Hundred and Sixty-Six
Many things will change as you progress in your studies. Some things will fall away from you; other things will begin to build. Worldly problems will press upon you that require your engagement and application. Other things that you thought were problems will become increasingly remote and unnecessary for you to concern yourself with. Thus, your outer life adjusts itself so that you can recognize where you are to apply yourself now. Then, your inner life and outer life can reflect one another. This is very important. You are beginning to learn how to learn, and you are seeing the world change as a result. The quality of your experience will be transformed in time so that all things, both common and extraordinary, will be viewed from a different viewpoint than before. You can then learn to take advantage of all opportunities and thus learn to appreciate life, even in its disappointments.
Practice this in the review today. Be very thorough in your investigation. Begin with the first lesson in the two-week period and follow it day by day. Recognize what happened in your life each day. Try to remember. Try to concentrate here. In this way, you will feel the movement of your own life. It is in recognizing this movement over a period of time and seeing how the stages of your life progress that you will realize that you are firmly on the road to Knowledge. You will then see that there will be less and less behind you to hold you back and that the future will open itself to accommodate you increasingly. This is the beneficence of life bowing before you who are becoming a student of Knowledge.
Practice 266: One long practice period.
Before, I did not know it was Knowledge guiding me and influencing my decisions and experience, now I can put a name to what has been happening and no longer doubt the things I have been led to do. I no longer think I am weird and inadequate, I realize I am heeding a deep calling within me, and beginning to recognize who I truly am, embracing my True Self.
I am feeling this particularly lately in my work – I am drawing boundaries, letting the people I work for know what I am willing to do and not willing to do in no uncertain terms, refusing to put myself in compromising positions, or feel obligated to do stuff that stresses me out. I am now in a position to pick and choose what suits me best and I am not hesitant to let my employers know.
"The quality of your experience will be transformed in time so that all things, both common and extraordinary, will be viewed from a different viewpoint than before."