Step Two Hundred and Forty-One
Anger, then, is not justified, for it is a misinterpretation of a true communication. Your anger is not justified because anger is born of confusion. Yet, confusion calls for preparation and the true application of Knowledge. Therefore, the sinful are not punished but are attended to. The wicked are not sent to hell but are prepared for Heaven. This is the true nature of God’s purpose in the world. That is why God can never be angry, because God is not offended. God is merely applying God to a situation where God has temporarily been forgotten.
In the greater scope of things, even the separation of all individual minds is a very temporary occurrence. You cannot think yet at this level and will not be able to do so for a long time, for you must undergo the various stages of development that integrate your mind into greater and greater experiences of relationship and life. But as you proceed and as you take each vital step that expands your horizons, you will begin to understand that anger is unjustified. It merely represents a failure to apply Knowledge in a particular situation. This calls for remedy not for condemnation. Here you will realize that your anger is something to be understood. It is not to be rejected, for if you reject anger, you also reject the seed of anger, which is true communication. Therefore, we wish to clean away that which has spoiled your true communication so that your true communication may shine forth, for true communication always comes from Knowledge.
Think of this idea upon the hour. In your deeper practice periods, actively engage your mind in looking at every single thing that you are angry about, from very tiny things that are specific to things in general that upset or discourage you. Remind yourself as you review your inventory of anger that your anger is unjustified. Remind yourself that it calls for the application of Knowledge and that within each angry experience or feeling that you have, there is a seed which is true. Therefore, your anger need not be rejected but cleansed, for in cleansing your anger you will be able to communicate that which you intended to communicate in the beginning where you initially failed. Then your self-expression will be complete, and anger will be no more.
Practice 241: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Actually, when all is said and done, I don’t feel angry about much these days, at least not where I am consciously aware of it. Hah! Beware of that pitfall, says my inner voice, keep the channels of communication open, be aware that you don't know it all, be discerning and watchful. Anger has many faces.
I would definitely say you are taking a step in the right direction by having the intention of applying Knowledge, even if you are unsure about the experience of it. You ask for Knowledge to help clarify the issue for you and you listen for answers. They may not be immediate, but you ask and listen, always open and attentive to the thoughts that surface in your mind. This to me is what the day to day experience looks and feels like. When you are genuinely and sincerely seeking answers and ask Knowledge to show you, the answers will come, some insight, some new angle, some feeling deep inside you know to be true.
As for your previous questions, "Where or what is the seed of anger in this issue? What is the true communication?", I can only suggest the following, again not feeling very competent to give definitive answers. I see the seed of anger as coming from some true injustice you feel. You feel anger towards men, this is something real, you have the right to feel this based on some previous experience, it just didn't arise out of thin air. The true communication, however, is to express this in a rational and sober way, in a way that does not "generate anger in others and stimulate a violent response internally and externally wherever it is applied."
I see a big difference between internally feeling anger about something and allowing these feelings to burst out externally and negatively affect the people around you. So I feel that true communication means learning to channel negative feelings, anger in this case, in a way that does not stimulate a violent response externally.
You are aware of your anger, you have the intention of applying Knowledge to the issue, you want to experience Knowledge working to heal these feelings, you are being rational and sober in your examination of your anger, you wish to cleanse the distortions created by your projections of blame and fear - this to me is true communication. You work diligently and honestly with your feelings and you ask for resolution. Sooner or later resolution will come.
One thing that really helps me in resolving anger toward a specific person or group of people is seeing that person or people as being in need of nurture and care, of needing to be loved. I see them as not doing the things they do because they are inherently bad or evil, it's just they know no better, they are still living in ignorance, so should be pitied rather than shown anger. Perhaps pity is not a constructive feeling either, but it is a step down from anger.
I hope this helps in some small way.
P.S. I am updating this post on August 29, 2016. Recently I have been experiencing anger towards my husband. I don't express it outwardly. I don't have irate outbursts. Sometimes I pass a remark, sometimes I show my frustration, but I don't go around angry all the time. And what angers me is when my husband voices his plans for the day, but fails to see them through. I get myself psyched up for doing the task planned, believe what he says, and then get frustrated when it doesn't happen. Not that it is any big deal, the actual task, I mean. What bothers me is that his words do not match his actions. And he wastes so much time. He takes long naps in the afternoon and then is up until after midnight. But he is not up doing anything productive, he is awake lying in bed with his laptop. This is unproductive use of time in my book. He also takes frequent cigarette breaks. But why should it be my business? I do what I need to do. Let him do what he needs to do. But he orders me around and interrupts what I need to do. I am expected to help. I am happy to help, but I have my own schedule too. I need to be more flexible and know that just because he says something, it does not necessarily mean it will happen. The intention is there, but the action may not meet the intention. I am a doer and disciplined. I am early to rise and early to bed. If I need to rest during the day, it is for no more than half-an-hour. Sasha is different. He has different rhythms, different motives. I need to go with the flow and not put so much store by his words. Why have I not learned this in all the years we have been together? I stumble here every time.