Step Two Hundred and Twenty
In today’s lesson, as in lessons past, you are learning to recognize the source of Knowledge and the vehicle of Knowledge and not to confuse the two. Learn restraint today so that Knowledge may grow within you. Do not think that restraint merely refers to past behavior where you limited what was genuine within yourself. No, your focus today is to learn the form of intentional restraint that represents an expression of your power and self-discipline. Your power and self-discipline must now be exercised to become strong, for your mind and body are vehicles of Knowledge, and as vehicles, they must be developed and strengthened.
In your deeper practices today, as in your hourly practices, restrain those forms of thinking and behavior that betray your Knowledge so that you may enter Knowledge in stillness and in peace. With this restraint, freedom will be discovered, for freedom is found beyond this world and is brought into this world, for freedom is the gift of Knowledge.
Practice 220: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
I am happy to report that the way I think of myself is taking on a new qualitative aspect since I am slowly awakening to the fact that I am not the person that is my physical body, my individual self with its physical and mental capacities, but a being that is not separate from God and in a relationship with God. And I am in this world through the grace of God, not through my own set of beliefs and preferences. I am here to serve and just the very awareness of this takes the pressure off for me, for I cannot fail. If I am aware of my service, rather than feeling that my life is all about me, it stands to reason that my service will be of value no matter what capacity it reveals itself in, because it will come from my deeper mind, the place where Knowledge resides.
Dealing with other people is a little harder. And restraint here takes two forms – I do not want to restrain myself from sharing with others due to fear of how they might react or what they might think of me but I need to show restraint and discretion in how much and what I share with people who may be in a different phase of their evolution.
This is all rather difficult to put into words. In a nutshell though – I feel less restraint in my experience of myself because berating and belittling myself is harmful and debilitating to the reclamation of Knowledge, and feel more restraint and self-discipline in my relationships with others. Yes, I understand how this restraint will allow Knowledge to develop and become strengthened in me.