Step Two Hundred and Thirty-One
You have a calling in this world because you were sent here to do something. It is for this reason that your mind is the way it is and that you have a specific nature that is distinct from others. As your calling emerges, you will realize why you think and act the way you do, and all of this will be brought into true balance and harmony. This will erase all cause you have for self-condemnation, for your nature represents a usefulness that you have not yet realized. In other words, you are made specifically for something that you have not yet comprehended. Prior to this you will resist your nature, thinking it is a limitation upon you. In time, you will realize that it is an invaluable resource for accomplishment, for you have a calling in the world.
Upon the hour remind yourself of this and remind yourself that you do not yet know what your calling is. Without presumptions, you will be in a position to discover the truth. In your deeper practice periods today enter stillness and silence once again, utilizing the word RAHN if you find that helpful. This is a day of preparation for you to realize your true calling in the world. It is a day given to Knowledge and a day that is taken away from false assumptions and self-deception. A day given to Knowledge brings you closer to realizing your calling, which will arise naturally without your presumptions once you and those with whom you must be engaged are prepared.
Practice 231: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
P.S. I tend to think that my calling must have something to do with the New Message, something that will be revealed to me now that I have found it (the NM). But is this the case? Perhaps I was called to do something else and I have already done it? Perhaps it has to do with alcohol dependence and becoming free of it? And not only for myself, but for my husband as well? It was a joint effort after all.
Or perhaps it was finding this place in the country? This also involves a broader picture, involves more people, is not just a private pursuit for my own personal benefit.