Step Two Hundred and Thirteen
You do not understand the world today. Be happy that this is so, for your condemnation is unfounded. You do not understand the world today. This gives you an opportunity to witness the world.
Upon the hour repeat this idea as you look upon the world. Remind yourself that you do not understand what you see, so you are free to look again. If you are not free to look, it simply means that you are attempting to justify your own judgments. This is not seeing. This is merely entertaining your own fantasies. In your two deeper practice periods today, allow your mind to enter stillness, for without the burden of attempting to justify your fantasies, your mind will naturally seek its true place in service to Knowledge. You do not understand the world today, and so you do not understand yourself.
Practice 213: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
I am willing to accept this and even find great relief in it, since it frees me from condemnation of the world and particularly of myself. It gives me the freedom to look again. This is what I appreciate most about Steps--they call for stepping beyond the confines of the mind that most people live in and embracing something much broader and expansive.
I wanted to condemn myself today, blame myself for ways I acted in the past, choices I made, wondering if perhaps I just had it all wrong and would get a big X from my Teachers at the end of my life, meaning you failed this time, go try again.
So indeed I do take great comfort in this Step that says I do not understand the world, my condemnation is unfounded, and I am free to look again. Thank you, I will.