Step Two Hundred and Nineteen
Step 219. I Will
Not Let Ambition Deceive Me Today.
As Knowledge is now beginning to germinate within you,
do not allow your own ambition to deceive you. Your ambition is born of your
personal need for recognition and reassurance. It is an attempt to counteract
fear by controlling the opinions of others. Your ambition here is destructive,
but like all other faculties of mind that are now misappropriated, in time it
can serve the greatness of Knowledge. You have not achieved this state yet;
therefore, do not attempt to do anything with your Knowledge, for it is not for
you to use Knowledge but to receive Knowledge. It is in your receptivity to
Knowledge that you will find Knowledge to be of the greatest service and
usefulness to you.
Do not let ambition pull you where you cannot go. Do not let it misappropriate your vitality and your energy. Learn to become patient and calm with Knowledge, for Knowledge has its own goal and direction in life, which you are now learning to follow.
Throughout today in your hourly practices and in your deeper meditations as well, allow yourself to be without ambition, for you do not know what to do with Knowledge. In your longer meditations, allow this to free you so that you may enter stillness and leave the world of physical things.
Practice 219: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Do not let ambition pull you where you cannot go. Do not let it misappropriate your vitality and your energy. Learn to become patient and calm with Knowledge, for Knowledge has its own goal and direction in life, which you are now learning to follow.
Throughout today in your hourly practices and in your deeper meditations as well, allow yourself to be without ambition, for you do not know what to do with Knowledge. In your longer meditations, allow this to free you so that you may enter stillness and leave the world of physical things.
Practice 219: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
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The only sentence I have trouble understanding in this Step is “It is an attempt to counteract fear by controlling the opinions of others.” I think the reason I don’t understand it is that it is not part of my current experience. I cannot say I am totally past the point where the opinions of others don’t bother me, but I am getting there.
Today I wish to receive Knowledge and be receptive of it.
March 11, 2015 Round Two: I read this chapter today. It provides a very good perspective on ambition Wisdom from the Greater Community II – Ambition: "To move towards realizing the real depth and purpose of your life, you must
move away from ambition."
I feel I have moved away from ambition to a certain
extent, particularly in terms of ambition in the world. I do not spend oodles of time and energy trying to attain fame and recognition, or even just in vain pursuits that bring no satisfaction.
I do still tend to set
high standards for myself in personal discipline and accomplishment though. I expect
a lot of myself. But I don’t think this is the same as what this Step is
talking about in terms of ambition.
I still don’t really
understand the sentence, “It is an attempt to counteract fear by controlling
the opinions of others.”
February 12, 2019 Round Three: My ambition is born of my personal need for recognition and reassurance. I was thinking about this yesterday in light of friendships. I do not want friends just to validate my opinion of myself. Is this ambition? Is this what this Step is talking about? Maybe I don’t understand ambition. Ambition is destructive, but in time it can serve the greatness of Knowledge. I do not understand this. I am not there yet, though, so I am not to attempt to do anything with Knowledge, for it is not for me to use Knowledge, but to receive it. I don’t think I try to use Knowledge. And I don’t think I am ambitious. I live my own quiet life, helping where I can to the best of my ability. I am open to contact, but not wide open to destructive forces. I feel my way and check my compass regularly. My compass is Knowledge.
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