Step One Hundred and Seventy-Seven
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Step 177. I Will Learn To Be Honest Today.
Learn, then, to feel what you know. This is a greater honesty. It requires both openness and restraint. It requires self-inspection. It requires objectivity about your life. It requires stillness and peace as well as the ability to engage your mind actively in exploration. Thus, all that you have learned so far is contributed and utilized in today’s practice.
Remind yourself upon the hour of today’s practice and seriously consider it in the moment in which you find yourself. In the longer practices today, again enter stillness and engage your mind in this meaningful activity. The mind must be brought into the proximity of its Ancient Home for it to find comfort and peace. This requires self-discipline at the outset, but once the engagement is made, the process happens in and of itself naturally.
Learn to become more honest today. Learn to discern a greater level of honesty, a genuine level of honesty that affirms your very nature and does not betray your highest purpose.
Practice 177: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Revisiting on June 26, 2017. This Step speaks to me deeply today. In the small hours of the morning, I experienced how the personal mind can take me sideways into areas of worry and concern. But with my deeper mind, I feel the Presence and its ever prevailing Love and Grace. I know it is there and I feel it. So I am feeling what I know. I felt its bright radiance shine into my mind around the time my sons arrived safely home. Even though I allowed myself to worry for a time, I knew they would be safe. And eventually I felt what I knew. This level of honesty is truly empowering.
Revisiting once more on June 26, 2018. This Step speaks to me deeply again today in a new, current situation I am dealing with. I am dealing with the owner of the house I am currently living in invading the quiet space my husband and I have created for ourselves here. I am faced with drawing boundaries, but in a way that delivers my message in an appropriate way.
This is not merely expressing and demanding that your personal intent be carried out. It is demanding instead that the necessity of life within you may express itself in a way that is genuine to life itself. The form and the manner of this expression will be contained in the messages that you will need to deliver to others when the time comes for that to happen.
So this quote from the Step perfectly addresses this dilemma. How can I best express myself in a way that is genuine to life itself? I am asking and waiting for clarity to dawn.