Step One Hundred and Fifty-One
Upon the hour repeat your statement, and consider it in light of all things that are occurring today. In your two deeper practices, consider the meaning of today’s idea as you think about it carefully. Apply your mind in a state of work as you attempt to penetrate the meaning of today’s lesson. Do not be comforted by premature conclusions. Investigate deeply with your mind in your practice periods. Use your mind actively. Consider many things within yourself while maintaining a concentration on today’s idea. If you do this, you will understand many things about Wisdom and ignorance, and your understanding will be born of compassion and true self-appreciation. For only from a place of self-love can you offer correction to yourself and to others.
Practice 151: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
These words ring loud and clear for me today as I contemplate this Step: “only from a place of self-love can you offer correction to yourself and to others.”
The situation I am dealing with is my daughter bringing up things she is remembering from my drinking days, things she saw and wished she hadn’t. She hasn’t elaborated so far, but memories are surfacing for me. And I am wondering. I have dealt with my past drinking days, my alcoholism, and moved on. I made mistakes, I have “issues,” shortcomings/defects, that became glaringly obvious when under the influence of alcohol. This affected my daughter in some way. I will not use fear to support my judgments. I am in a safe place now, I am with Knowledge. My only wish today is for my daughter to be in that place too.