Step One Hundred and Five
|Sunset on the River Oka, Moscow Region, Russia|
Step 105. Review
Our teaching will thus simplify all things, which will resolve the conflicts that you carry now and which will make conflict in the future unnecessary. For to the extent that you are with Knowledge, conflict does not exist. An unconflicted life is the greatest contribution that can be given into the world, for this is a life that will spark the beginning of Knowledge in all, a spark that can carry itself into the future far beyond your individual life. It is this great spark that you are intended to give into the world, for then your giving will have no end and will serve your current generation and the generations to come.
The blessings that you are now experiencing today in your world are the result of these reverberations which are passed from generation to generation as Knowledge is kept alive in the world. The opportunity for you to have Knowledge is born of the giving of those who have lived before, as your giving will provide the opportunity for freedom for those who will follow. This is your greater purpose in life: to keep Knowledge alive in the world. But first you must learn of Knowledge—learn how to recognize it, learn how to accept it, learn how to discern it from the other impulses in your mind and learn the many stages of development that will be required in following Knowledge towards its great fulfillment. That is why you are a beginning student of Knowledge.
In your one long practice, undertake your Review in as much detail as possible. Allow confusion and uncertainty to exist, for this is necessary in this stage of investigation. Be happy, then, for all the things that can be truly recognized and know that Knowledge is with you, so you are free to be uncertain.
Practice 105: One long practice period.
This review feels like reaching a new vantage point on the way up the mountain, reaching a ledge with a better view—so many probing and profound issues (for want of a better word) are addressed in the Steps included in this review.
What has particularly come into sharper focus for me is the deeper realization that I am part of the whole, I am not separate, I do not function alone. In other words, the part I have to play must be coordinated and in unison with the whole. I cannot go off on a tangent, take things into my own hands, and act independently—the name of the game is interdependence. Knowledge guides us all and I need to stay aware of its multifaceted elements and realize that my contribution must be coordinated with the whole.
I spent the last three days fishing on the Oka River. Winter is descending, the water is icing up, snow is beginning to fall, but the flame of Knowledge burns within. It was in this natural environment that I did this review.
"For to the extent that you are with Knowledge, conflict does not exist. An unconflicted life is the greatest contribution that can be given into the world."
The Steps of this past week emphasize a loosening of past engrained, hard and brittle thinking. There is much I must unlearn, I let go of blame and judgment, I accept that I am honored by God and that God knows more about me than I do. I am beginning to sense how God is known through relationship. When people engage and recognize aspects of each other, acknowledge and validate each other, this is the experience of God.
"The greater purpose that you share with everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and to bring something from your Ancient Home into the world."Greater Community Spirituality Chapter 5: What is Human Purpose?