Only in imagination can you fulfill yourself otherwise, and imagination is not reality. Accepting this may at first seem like a limitation and a disappointment, for you already have designs and motives for your own personal fulfillment, whether they have been experienced or not. Your entire agenda for your fulfillment must now be brought into question, not to deprive you of anything of value, but to release you from a bondage which could only deceive and disappoint you in time. Therefore, accepting the hopelessness of your attempt to fulfill yourself opens you finally to receive the great gift which is available to you and which is awaiting you. This great gift is meant to be given through you into the world in a way that is specific for your happiness and for the happiness of those who will naturally be drawn to you.
How can you possibly fulfill yourself? Upon the hour today, repeat this question and give it a moment of serious consideration, regardless of your circumstances. As you practice upon the hour, look out into the world and see how people are trying to fulfill themselves, both in situations that now exist and in situations that are hoped for. Understand how much this separates them from life as it truly exists. Understand how this separates them from the mystery of their own existence and the wonder of life that they are free to encounter every moment of every day. Do not allow yourself to be so deprived. Fantasy will always paint a grand picture for you, but it has no foundation in reality. Only those who attempt to fortify each other’s fantasies will attempt relationship with each other for this purpose, and their disappointment will be mutual, for which they will be inclined to blame each other. Do not seek, then, that which can only bring you unhappiness and only destroy the great opportunity for relationship for you.
Upon the hour repeat this statement. In your two practice periods, enter stillness and receptivity so that you may learn to receive fulfillment as it truly exists.
Practice 95: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
As I consider the turning points in my life and engage in life mapping, as has been suggested during this session of the Free School, I am encouraged to find that my life so far has indeed been a series of serendipitous turning points that have brought me to where I am today, and really I have had no particular fantasies for myself. I have gone where I felt I was being guided, albeit at times unconsciously. In other words, a fuller understanding of Knowledge has only come to me recently, but it is as though I have been guided by it all my life without being fully aware of it. This gives me encouragement to hope (dare I use that word?) that things will continue in this way, especially now that I am consciously aware of the guidance of Knowledge, and I will be led to a recognition of my true purpose, know where I am going and where I have come from, and know where I will return.
"Therefore, accepting the hopelessness of your attempt to fulfill yourself opens you finally to receive the great gift which is available to you and which is awaiting you. This great gift is meant to be given through you into the world in a way that is specific for your happiness and for the happiness of those who will naturally be drawn to you."
"Those who respond to us are given tasks which utilize them so greatly. For in this way, they recognize their greatness. How may greatness be recognized save by its application?"