Step 87. I Will Not Be Afraid Of What I Know.
In your two longer practice periods today, practice letting go of fear so that you may know. Allowing your mind to be still and receptive without making demands will be a demonstration that you are trusting Knowledge. It will give you reprieve from the afflictions and the animosities of this world. With this, you will begin to see a different world.
Practice 87: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
I think I can say very confidently that I am not afraid of what I know, but perhaps I am afraid or reluctant to let others know what I know. Fear is one of those areas I feel I have not fully explored. I think I am not afraid, I am strong in my own convictions and not swayed by what the world puts out to keep people in a state of panic, anxiety, and fear. But is this really true? Am I truly not afraid?
P.S. Interesting that today (March 26, 2016), as I post this Step again, my husband joined Facebook and, if he is interested, he can see all I post in Russian about the New Message. He has asked to join the Russian "God, Angels and Spirituality" group, which is where I advocate the NM. However, he is very skeptical of such things and calls them "cults," so in the past I have not shared my spiritual calling with him. Am I afraid of him knowing? Is this what this Step is referring to? It will be interesting to see how his knowing what I am up to transpires. I am stronger now, so I think I can handle it if he challenges me on this.
P.P.S. Another year has passed (today is Tuesday, March 28, 2017, as I revisit this Step). My husband tried to challenge me, but failed. I held my ground and he backed off. He knows better than to challenge me on something like this--hehehe.