This is a record of my personal experience as I practice Steps to Knowledge for the second time. These Steps are contained in the book "Steps to Knowledge: The Book of Inner Knowing."
I also recommend reading "Taking the Steps to Knowledge."
You will find links to these texts in each journal entry below.
In your review today, once again review the past week of practices and
instruction. Once again examine the qualities within yourself which aid you in
your preparation and the qualities within yourself that make your preparation
more difficult. Observe these things objectively. Learn to strengthen those
aspects of yourself that encourage and strengthen your participation in the
reclamation of Knowledge, and learn to adjust or correct those qualities that
interfere. You must recognize both to have Wisdom. You must learn of truth and
you must learn of error. You must do this to progress, and you must do this to
serve others. Unless you have learned of error and can look at it objectively
and understand how it has arisen and how it can be relieved—until you have
learned these things—you will not know how to serve others, and their errors
will anger you and frustrate you. With Knowledge your expectations will be in
harmony with the nature of another. With Knowledge you will learn how to serve
and you will forget how to condemn.
22, 2013 Round One: I have spent more time than I intended on this review, but
ultimately have concluded that I am aided in my preparation by my desire to
seek and my quest for Knowledge, understanding this to be the core of my being.
Having become aware that I am on a mission from God and not here merely to
reach other transitory goals such as wealth, acclaim, abundance, happiness, and
so on, I am intent on discovering what that mission is. And I am hindered in my
preparation by my arrogance, egoism, judgmental attitude, aggrandized ideas
about how right I am, to name those "qualities" that immediately come
to mind (there are no doubt more). But I recognize my own errors and accept
them as stepping stones leading to greater awareness and Knowledge, so I pick
up and go on. I am still not sure how I can serve.
29, 2014 Round Two: This has been a hard week of Steps – not hard to practice,
but hard to feel I have accomplished anything, since the assignments were those
I call “tall orders.” Listening to my True Self, not judging others, being
aware of my greater purpose, and keeping all these lofty spiritual concepts in
mind all the time is a lot to ask a body. Maybe I have just reached a plateau
on the climb where I need to rest longer.
with this review today, I was struck by the following sentence in this Step:
“Unless you have learned of error and can look at it objectively and understand
how it has arisen and how it can be relieved—until you have learned these
things—you will not know how to serve others, and their errors will anger you
and frustrate you.”
think I am making progress here because humor always helps in situations that
could otherwise anger and frustrate me. A case in point is when our car GPS
navigator (how did we ever manage without it) led us on a wild goose chase
yesterday (Sunday) to avoid a horrendous traffic jam as we drove back into
Moscow in the evening. It added three or more hours onto our journey and we
almost ended up in the lake. I found it so hilariously funny though that I had
enough to keep me laughing for the rest of the night. And we found the sea
buckthorn we (or should I say Sasha) have been avidly looking for this year.
here is one of the romantic songs Sasha used to play for me on his record
player. I really do love him. “With Knowledge your expectations will be in
harmony with the nature of another.”
Step 198. Today I Will Be Strong. Be strong
today. Follow the plan that is given to you. Do not hold yourself back or alter
the instructions in any way. There are no shortcuts here; there is only the
direct way. You are given the steps. Follow them. Be strong today. Only your
ideas of yourself speak of weakness. Only your evaluation of yourself says that
you are pathetic, incapable or inadequate. You must have faith in your strength
and exercise this faith to realize your strength.
Upon the hour repeat this statement and attempt to experience it in whatever
circumstance you find yourself. Within your two deeper practice periods today,
use your strength to engage in stillness completely. Allow your mind to be
freed of the chains of its own concepts. Allow your body to be freed of a
tormented mind. In this, your mind and your body will settle into their natural
function, and all things will fall into right order within you. Knowledge will
then find expression through your mind and throug…
Step 214. I Do
Not Understand Myself.This is not a statement of failure or limitation. It is simply a
statement to liberate you from your own impediments. How can you possibly
understand yourself if Knowledge is not revealing all things to you? How can
you possibly understand the world when Knowledge is not revealing the world to
you? This is pure experience, beyond all concepts and beliefs, for concepts and
beliefs can only follow the experience and attempt to provide a structure where
the experience can arise again. In no way can beliefs, assumptions or ideas
possibly imitate Knowledge itself.
Of course you do not understand yourself or the world, for you only understand
your ideas, and they are not eternal. Therefore, they cannot provide a solid
foundation upon which you must learn to stand. Thus, they can only fail and
deceive you if you rely upon them instead of Knowledge to reveal yourself and
the world to you.
Upon the hour remind yourself that you do not understand yourself. F…
264. I Will Learn Of Freedom This Day. Today you will have an
opportunity to learn more about freedom. The step you take today will be very
substantial in giving you a new viewpoint about freedom, about bondage, about
problem solving and about the nature of true advancement.
Today think about your lesson on the hour and think about what freedom is. In
your longer practice periods, devote your mind to thinking about freedom. This
is a very important focal point today. In your longer meditations in
particular, devote your mind entirely to reviewing your ideas about freedom.
What do you think constitutes freedom? What do you think prevents people from
being free? What produces a freedom that is lasting and secure? How can this be
achieved? What will support it in the future? After you spend approximately
thirty minutes thinking about all this in each practice, enter into stillness
and silence. Open yourself to allow Knowledge to speak to you. Abide with your
Teachers there. After you…