Margarita in Mikhail Bulgakov's The Master and Margarita (one of my all-time favorite books)
Step 57. Freedom Is With Me.
Within this program of development, you are now learning to turn towards freedom and away from fear and the darkness of your own imagination. In freedom you will find stability and consistency. This will give you the foundation upon which to build your love and sense of self-worth, and this foundation shall not be shaken by the world, for it is greater than the world. It is not born of the misgiving of separation. It is born of the truth of your total inclusion in life.
Upon the hour repeat today’s idea and take a moment to feel that freedom is with you. As you come closer to freedom throughout the day, you will be able to recognize more and more clearly what holds you back. You will realize that it is but your adherence to your own thoughts that holds you back. It is your interest in your own imagination that holds you back. This will lighten your burden, and you will realize that a true choice is available. This realization will give you the strength to come to freedom today.
In your two deep meditation practices, repeat today’s idea and attempt to allow your mind to be still, which is the beginning of its freedom. This practice in stillness will enable your mind to shake loose the chains that bind it—its unforgiveness from the past, its anxiety over the future and its avoidance of the present. In stillness your mind rises above all that keeps it small, hidden and isolated within its own darkness. How close is freedom to you today who need but be still to receive it. And how great is your reward, you who have come into the world, for freedom is with you.
Practice 57: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
In reality, I have the choice to abandon such thoughts and imaginings and step boldly forward toward what I feel to be true. I have often repeated to myself in the past that I am my own worst enemy. And it becomes so obvious again now. I have no one else to blame for my fears, anguish, and narrow thinking but myself. It is indeed my own thoughts that hold me back. And I can change those feelings and thoughts at any moment, upon command, as soon as I realize my self-inflicted bondage. I can free myself from those bonds and claim the Knowledge that is rightfully mine, emerge from the darkness into the light--I have the freedom to do that.