In your two practice periods today, recognize the extent of your own idealism. Observe carefully what you want yourself to be, what you want your world to be and what you want your relationships to be. Repeat today’s idea and, with eyes closed, examine each of your ideals. Even though your ideals may look beneficial and seem to represent your desire for love and harmony, they in effect hold you back, for they replace that which would truly give you the gifts that you seek.
Practice 54: Two 30-minute practice periods.
It says in this Step that my ideals may seem to represent my desire for love and harmony, but that this holds me back. I do indeed wish to see love and harmony around me and try to cultivate this feeling by seeing the positive in each situation, looking for good things in other people, not allowing myself to feel discouraged or trampled down. But is this being idealistic?
I think there is a difference between seeing the world through rose-tinted glasses and building illusive castles in the air that have no foundation in reality and so are bound to end in disillusion and disappointment and seeing the world from an optimistic viewpoint, looking for something beneficial, something good and true, be it in situations and problems that arise, or relationships, or whatever. And most important, asking to be shown the Truth, never forgetting that Knowledge is my guide, always checking back to see if what I think and feel truly resonates with what Knowledge is showing me.
Still it can be very confusing at times.