In your two practice periods, begin by acknowledging to yourself that you are a beginning student of Knowledge and by reminding yourself to make no premature conclusions either about this curriculum or about your abilities as a student. Such judgments are premature and rarely reflect the truth in any way. They are usually a form of self-discouragement and thus serve no worthy purpose at all.
After declaring today’s idea to yourself and reminding yourself not to judge, practice 15 minutes of inner stillness in your two practice periods. Attempt to feel the truth within you. Focus your mind on one point, either a physical point or an imaginary point if necessary. Let everything settle down inside. Let yourself become as quiet as possible, and do not be discouraged if there is difficulty. You are a beginning student of Knowledge and thus can learn all things.
Practice 34: Two 15-minute practice periods.
July 20, 2018 Round Three: No electricity today. Lightning struck around 7 pm yesterday and there was no electricity until around 1 pm today. And no Internet until around 5.30 pm. It was a relaxing, peaceful day without being pulled to the computer. A different energy. We went to Ira’s for the third anniversary of her son’s death. It was a mellow, easy time eating good food and socializing comfortably with the neighbors. I do not feel like a totally beginning student, I feel I have accomplished something and this Step acknowledges this. Only I understand that I still do not know and am teachable. I still have a lot to learn. Two 15-min stillness practices.
First practice - in the greenhouse - 4.51-5.06. Masha was curled on my lap. Some distraction. I wanted to talk to Hilary and was thinking about what I wanted to say. But I managed to focus on an inner spot and saw myself bending, bowing with a bent head on my knees while encircled by my Teachers who were blessing me.
Second practice - resting before going to Ira’s 12.43-12.58. No particular insights. I accept that I am a beginning student.