|I am teachable.|
If you were intending to honestly approach learning any skill, first you must recognize how much you do not know, then you must recognize how much you need to learn, and then you must seek the best form of instruction possible. This must apply to the reclamation of Knowledge. You must realize how little you know, how much you need to know and then receive the instruction that is provided. Is it a weakness to need a teacher? No. It is an honest recognition based upon an honest evaluation. If you realize how little you know and how much you need to know and the power of Knowledge itself, you will understand how obvious this is. How can you give to those who think they already have, when in reality they are poor? You cannot. And their poverty will be self-inflicted and self-maintained.
Why do you need a teacher? Because you need to learn. And you need to unlearn that which you have learned that is holding you back. In your two practice periods today, with your eyes closed in meditation, consider why you need a Teacher. Observe any thoughts that seem to indicate that you could do it on your own if you were smart enough or strong enough or met some other qualification. If these expectations arise, recognize them for what they are. They are an insistence that you remain ignorant by proclaiming yourself an adequate instructor. You cannot teach yourself what you do not know, and the attempt to do so merely recirculates old information and binds you closer to where you are now.
Therefore, in practice today recognize your need for true instruction and your resistance, if it is there, to the presence of true instruction which is available to you now.
Practice 47: Two 30-minute practice periods.
On the other hand, it is very easy to follow or be taken in by false teachers and led astray. Everything offered needs to be internalized to know whether it feels true or not.
This Step speaks to me since it seems to me that the teachers it talks about are our Spiritual Teachers, the Teachers that are always close by and only need to be sought out and addressed to receive the gifts they have to offer. The gifts of Knowledge. And what is most important for me is to realize that what I feel inside is not created by me but comes from instruction offered by my teachers, only I have to be open and willing to receive it.