Today, in your two 30-minute practice periods, look at specific errors that you have made that have been very painful. Do not try to dismiss the pain of them, but see how in your current circumstances in life you can use them for your own benefit. Using errors in this way can show you what you need to do and what corrections or adjustments need to be made to enhance the quality of your life. Remember that any resolution to error always engenders true recognition and true discernment in relationship.
In your practice periods review the errors that come to mind as you sit quietly alone, and then see how each one can be utilized to your current benefit. What needs to be learned from them? What must be done that was not done before? What must not be done that was done before? How can these errors be recognized in advance? What were the signs that preceded them and how can such signs be recognized in advance of error in the future?
Use these practice periods for this introspective process and when you are done, do not speak of the results to any other person, but allow the investigation to continue naturally, as it naturally will.
Practice 26: Two 30-minute practice periods.
It has been my practice in the past to try and recognize errors for what they are, but not blame or beat myself over the head for them. However, often it is difficult to have a kind and loving attitude toward myself for my errors, but I realize that self-forgiveness is the only way to pick up and move on. So the sentence below from the Step really spoke to me.
July 13, 2018 Round Three: I reiterate what I wrote the second time. My review of my errors brings me to the conclusion that I have made few major errors in my life. I have made errors of judgment, mainly about people, thinking them better than they actually are and then losing due to my gullibility. I have made no errors regarding education, career, choice of significant partners, or choice of place to live. I feel I have been strong in Knowledge all my life and not allowed myself to make poor choices. I have been drawn into dubious relationships due to my naivety and gullibility. I always think people’s intentions are nobler than they are. I read Doug’s Second Journey journal every day. Interesting that he chose to focus on entirely different errors - self-neglect, false humility, imbalance of the Four Pillars - things I would never have thought of as errors in the context of this step. Those are not the kind of errors I can learn from and not make again. They seem more to be personal defects, but that is a whole other story.
I did not do two practices today because I was busy in the garden picking blackcurrants and then preserving cucumbers. I enjoyed listening to Hilary’s audio messages and replying to her as I was picking. It added much joy and less tedium to the task.