Therefore, in your one practice period, review the last section of practice and all that has been experienced thus far.
Practice 21: One 45-minute practice period.
July 8, 2018 Round Three: The third time I am doing this review, I feel I have reached the point where everything is intuitively obvious to me. This past week I have been listening to my experience, been aware and alert to the fact that Knowledge resides beyond my surface mind, been open to hearing the truth and feeling the truth arise within me, been filled with the desire to see, and not been allowing doubt and confusion to slow my progress. I am opening up to these concepts and allowing them to blossom like a flower within me.
I am not allowing Volodya’s presence to cloud my joy about living here in the country. Whenever we go to our new plot, I am filled with such contentment and gratitude. This is what I have wanted all my life, to have a spot to call my own in a beautiful, peaceful setting. It is the culmination of my dream. Now the house we are living in does not feel so much like home because there has been an intrusion and much of the harmony has been violated. Volodya says, “out of destruction comes new creation.” I am waiting to see it. But for the time being, a small dark cloud hangs over my idyllic life and a niggling feeling of discontent spoils my general happiness.
I am integrating this past week of Steps into my experience. I am understanding that not all is as it seems, there is a deeper truth, a deeper meaning waiting to be discovered. I am waiting out the time until this deeper truth and meaning become apparent to me. I am trying to solve the puzzle of Volodya and waiting for clarity to dawn.
I am seeing more how Steps are integrated and one leads on from and builds on the previous. Or rather how there is a connection between the Steps as they proceed. There is a logical sequence, and even though I am terrible at logic and logical thinking, I like things to have a logical sequence where I can see the intrinsic pattern in things. Steps have a logical sequence and intrinsic pattern. Things are weaving together into specific constructs, pieces of wisdom I can take hold of and stow away in my pocket.