Step Twenty-Nine

Touch drawing by Deborah Koff-Chapin

Step 29. I Will Observe Myself Today To Learn Of Knowledge.
On this special day of practice, observe yourself throughout the day, maintaining awareness of your thoughts and behavior as much as possible. To develop this quality of self-observation, you must be as free of judgment as possible, for judgment disables you from being observant. You must study yourself as if you were someone else with whom you can be far more objective.

We shall practice on the hour today. Each hour you will need to check in to see your thoughts and to observe your current behavior. This constant self-checking will enable you to become far more involved in your current experience and will allow your Knowledge to exercise its beneficial influence upon you to a far greater degree. Knowledge knows what you need and knows how to serve you, but you must learn how to receive. In time, you must learn how to give as well so that you may receive more. Your receiving is important because it enables you to give, and giving is the essence of fulfillment in this world. But you cannot give from an impoverished state. Therefore, your giving must be genuine, born of the overflowing receptivity that you have cultivated within yourself, within your relationships with others and with life.

Each practice period need only take several minutes but should be given your full attention. You need not close your eyes to do this, though if it is appropriate, it will be helpful. You may practice in the middle of a conversation with another. In fact, there are very few circumstances that will prevent this moment of introspection. In practice you simply ask yourself, “How do I feel?” and “What am I doing now?”That is all. Then feel if there is something you must do that you are not doing. If there are no corrections to be made, continue on with what you are doing. If there are corrections to be made, make them as expediently as possible. Allow your inner guidance to influence you, which it will do if you are not governed by impulses, fear or ambition. Observe yourself this day.

Practice 29:
Hourly practice.

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December 5, 2012 Round One: This has been an interesting practice, this hourly practice, since I have never done it before, it is a new practice for me. Self-observation is something I find very productive though and I have to say that it is not something new for me, since over the years I have incorporated it into my general way of being. I check my reactions, my emotions, how I am feeling throughout the day, take note mentally and adjust where necessary. When doing this Step, however, I also wrote down what I was doing and how I was feeling every hour, that helped to add substance.

July 29, 2014 Round Two: The hourly practices begin! I so appreciate how Steps eases the student gently into the practice agenda. A month has passed, enough time to begin getting the hang of putting aside time in the day for two or three practices, first of ten, then of fifteen, and then of thirty minutes. Now we begin the checking in every hour. I have to admit that I was very lackadaisical about this the first time around. I think this first step that calls for hourly practices is the only one I made any attempt to actually adhere to. This time I am setting an alarm to remind me every hour and taking a few minutes to check my state.

Today I have been feeling even and balanced, the hourly practice has caught me engaged in my usual activities in a good frame of mind – exercise in the woods, shopping for groceries, sharing New Message posts on the Internet, doing my professional translation work. This practice confirms for me once again that I engage in observing myself most of the time. It is a pretty much ingrained habit of mine. I am aware of my reactions to different things and immediately try to correct them if I feel they are not being guided by Knowledge. When feelings arise that disturb me, seem dissonant, and do not resonate with the general state of harmony I feel, I ask for guidance, ask to be shown the truth, and then I wait. An answer I feel happy with always comes.


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