In your two practice periods, practice feeling this relationship. Again you are asked to receive because you must receive this to give it. Once it is received, it will give of itself naturally. In the process of this your worth is re-established because it is quite apparent. You do not need to misrepresent yourself or your experience. To share a great love honestly means you must be experiencing it. It is this experience that we wish to give you today.
Practice 25: Two 15-minute practice periods.
P.S. January 25, 2017 If I can nurture these relationships and really experience them, I can have a relationship with God, the sum of all relationships.
July 12, 2018 Round Three: I am to experience this great truth. It is a product of great relationship - first with my Teachers within me, then with those in my outer life. But first I must experience the source of my great relationship in its true establishment already. What does this “true establishment” mean? I don’t think I zoned on this before. I must feel this relationship and receive it. Once it is received, it will give of itself naturally, thus my worth will be re-established, because it is quite apparent. I do not need to misinterpret myself or my experience. I am to experience this great truth.
First 15-min practice - in the greenhouse 5.32-5.47. It was so nice to come to the greenhouse openly without worrying about disturbing Volodya or have him intrude in my space. Masha was with me and kept coming onto my lap and purring. A bee was buzzing. I practiced the sphere imagery and listening to Stillness. I keep hearing “Go.” But go where? This time I heard “Go home.” But where is home? Home for me now is our plot of land. I feel we need to build somewhere to live there as soon as possible. Sasha agreed with me on our walk this morning. This is the great truth for me today. I cannot permit Volodya to intrude in my space for much longer, it is too discomfiting and abrasive.