Practice 10: Read the lesson three times today.
“It is the great mystery of your life. Its outward manifestations are profound intuition, great insight, inexplicable knowing, wise perception in the present and in the future and wise understanding of the past.”
June 26, 2018 Round Three: First reading (5.00 am). Again I am hard put to say anything more than I have already experienced. This Step gives a supreme and understandable definition of Knowledge. It is the great mystery of my life, profound intuition, great insight, inexplicable knowing, wise perception of the present and the future, and wise understanding of the past. It is my True Self that is not apart from life. I am grasping the meaning of relationship as presented by the New Message. It is much more than the relationship between two people. It embraces all of life, and extends further to embrace the Divine and God. God is manifested through Knowledge within each individual. God is not concerned with me personally. God moves throughout the whole and is manifested in how the parts express themselves. I am in relationship with life, with my Teachers, with my Spiritual Family, with God because Knowledge is expressed through me. I can be physically alone, but I am not apart from life. This is relationship.
Second reading (12.50). Knowledge is even more than the great achievements of the mind, it is my True Self, it is God’s creation, and I am part of God’s Creation. It is the eternal part of me that will never die. I am enjoying my solitude. I can wrap a cocoon around myself and not allow Volodya to intrude and ruffle my calm, upset my equilibrium. Perfect blue skies, hot sun.
Third reading (bedtime, after 8 pm). I feel as though I have been tense today, on the alert regarding Volodya, watching to see where he is and what he is doing so that I can avoid him if possible, not relaxed. I am missing the opportunity to be in stillness today, since the Step does not call for it and I have been unable to make the time for it myself. I am sinking into the understanding that Knowledge is my True Self and that this Self is not apart from life. I like feeling the flow of that.