Spend one practice period today of approximately 45 minutes to review all of the instructions and to review the results and quality of your practice. Tomorrow we shall begin the next stage of our preparation together.
Practice 14: One 45-minute practice period.
June 30, 2018 Round Three: As I read back on what I wrote the past two times, I see I had a pretty good grasp at that time, and I do not have any new or deep insights to add this time. This review asks me to review all the instructions and results so far to reveal the depth of my involvement, the content of my experience and the realization of my own Knowledge. I am pleased to say that I feel my involvement is deep, I am alert to what my experience is telling me, and I am aware of my connection with Knowledge. I have done a lot of mapping of my life to this point and my experience shows that Knowledge has been moving me at the major turning points and I have been following its lead.
Step 1 - I have come to a deeper understanding of Knowledge and how it has moved me in my life so far. I know the place where Knowledge resides within me, I can go there in stillness - it is the greater aspect of mind I have brought from my Ancient Home.
Step 2 - I am present to myself and my thoughts and emotions, I know I am in the right place, with the right people, doing the right thing. I feel I am with Knowledge.
Step 3 - I really know only what is intuitively obvious to me at a deeper level.
Step 4 - I don’t want what I think I know - if I think I know something, it’s probably wrong. I often assume things that prove to be wrong. I am always open to the fact I may be wrong. I give my assumptions the benefit of the doubt. I have a lot of assumptions about Volodya, for instance, but I don’t know what his presence in my life means at the moment. I am waiting to see. And this is how it is in general with the things I think I know - I am waiting to see how they stand the test of time.
Step 5 - I do believe what I want to believe and those things have stood the test of time - they have manifested in my life, they have come true. There is one sentence in this Step though that I don’t get - “You will find that even your fearful or negative beliefs are associated with your ambitions.” Do I have any fearful or negative beliefs? I don’t think so.
Step 6. I have not come to this world empty-handed. My true foundation is in My Ancient Home, which I can manifest in the world. My true foundation is in nature, which reminds me of my Ancient Home, so that is why so strive to live in nature, far from the madding crowd.
Step 7. Review. I did this review as best I could.
Step 8. I was still and calm on this day. Volodya did not see me, I remained invisible, we passed like ships in the night.
Step 9. Stillness is where I ask no questions, come to no conclusions, just be in the glory of it all.
Step 10. I love the description and explanation of Knowledge. I understand it deeply. It is bringing me back to my True Self. And I am doing this because it gives me sustenance and makes sense. It is bringing me back in alignment with my spiritual core and, in so doing, my life is a joy, it is in harmony, and all my relationships have meaning and purpose. I get this!
Steps 11-12-13 are all linked. Step 11 makes the statement, states a basic truth - I am not apart from life, Step 12 goes on to elaborate that even though I am not apart, I see myself as an individual in this world, in a body with a personality, and as such I must use this to express life (the meaning of this earthly existence). Thus I am experiencing Separation and have chosen this state because I want to be unique (Step 13), but really this uniqueness is a burden to me and causes me pain, because it’s not working. Separation can never work, because I have never left God and can only hurt myself by trying. Once I understand that I have never separated from God and I am a part of the whole, I can use my individuality to express the unique gifts I have come here to give and my individuality will turn to joy.