Step Three Hundred and Fifty-Nine
Upon the hour remind yourself that you wish to be present to serve the world. Remind yourself as well that you wish to be present to have the world serve you. Remind yourself that you must learn how to receive and how to give, and that is why you are a beginning student of Knowledge. Do not burden yourself with expectations of yourself beyond what is being indicated in your program of preparation. Your Teachers recognize your current stage and they recognize your current step. They do not underestimate your power, but they do not overestimate your current capabilities, either. That is why you will need them to proceed with certainty, honesty and reliability.
In your deeper practices, be present to give yourself to your practice in stillness. Remember again that all practice is giving. You are giving yourself so that your True Self may be given to you. Here you bring what is small to what is great and what is great brings itself to what is small. Here you realize that you too are great and that the small is meant to express the greatness of which you are a part. The world calls desperately for this greatness to be revealed, yet you must learn how to reveal greatness in the world.
Practice 359: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Here you will find pointers for getting started if this is your first encounter with this practice: Taking the Steps to Knowledge.
I do not seek escape from my experience and I do not seek escape from the world – I can affirm this today.
I say I wish to be present to have the world serve me, although to be honest I am not sure what it means “to be present.” For the moment (until greater insight descends), I am taking it to mean having my wits about me, being alert, attentive, and aware of the signs, practicing inner listening and listening for Knowledge.
August 8, 2015 Round Two: Computer problems and an electricity outage forced me to change my plans today, made it impossible for me to work, so I had to do other things. I am not sure how this can be interpreted in the context of this Step, but it did help me to realize that I cannot control things or have things as I would prefer. It also helped me not feel so stressed out about getting my “quota” of work done for the day. Since I returned to a full work schedule in August, I have been stressing about getting everything done. My technical problems showed me that the world is not going to end and nothing drastic is going to happen if I don’t fulfill the plan for the day. It is good to have some discipline and targets, but it is not the end of the world if things do not all work out. They will eventually.